A collection of my heart put into words
to be so engulfed with words, that I crumble.
-jaysie
at my most vulnerable, that is when I am me.
– jaysie
I Remember me, I Remember me not
Ambiguity and perplexity
An idea of hope made up of cells and molecules
with a voice as smooth as the river
and a smile as bright as a thousand suns
Let it be told,
I remember being a savior
I didn’t know my control for you to see
Was your biggest ailment
Burdened by perfection
I remember loving you
Healing you
But this memory does not serve me
My mother remembers her daughter hating herself
My brother remembers his sister begging him to let her have another drink
My partner remembers his partner doubting their worth
I remember perceiving hindering
A warped sense of self pleasure
As they ask, “Do you remember?”
No
I remember being a savior
I remember being the innocence
I remember being the caretaker
Let me care for you
Please, let me show you the right way
Please, let me remember myself in a way that makes death smile